INVENTORY
Things I wish I would do different:
I wish I wasn't so nervous about having to talk in front of others. My brain stops working - I feel tired and weak.
Today I was very nervous about having to instruct the people in my zone about how to count tags. As is 99% the case, the imaginings in my head were much worse than what actually happened. I want to be able to admit that I don't know how things are going to end up. I am not God, I cannot predict the future.
I don't communicate with Leland as well as I want. I want to say what is really on my mind. I want to stop worshiping women. I want to treat them like human beings, not objects. I want so badly to give up that feeling I have when I see one that is attractive. That feeling of "oh no, what do I do?" or "what will I say?" or "how can I impress this person". I just want to be myself and let God do the rest. God will do the rest!
I need to get a sponser, if only so I can do my fifth step. I really think it would be good for me. I need to go to meetings to find a decent candidate. The truth is I need to go more often than I want, but not more than I need. I want to feel good! I know I do when I go to meetings and work the steps. So why not?
I wish I wasn't so nervous about having to talk in front of others. My brain stops working - I feel tired and weak.
Today I was very nervous about having to instruct the people in my zone about how to count tags. As is 99% the case, the imaginings in my head were much worse than what actually happened. I want to be able to admit that I don't know how things are going to end up. I am not God, I cannot predict the future.
I don't communicate with Leland as well as I want. I want to say what is really on my mind. I want to stop worshiping women. I want to treat them like human beings, not objects. I want so badly to give up that feeling I have when I see one that is attractive. That feeling of "oh no, what do I do?" or "what will I say?" or "how can I impress this person". I just want to be myself and let God do the rest. God will do the rest!
I need to get a sponser, if only so I can do my fifth step. I really think it would be good for me. I need to go to meetings to find a decent candidate. The truth is I need to go more often than I want, but not more than I need. I want to feel good! I know I do when I go to meetings and work the steps. So why not?
posted by Richard at 5:20 PM
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